Alone
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Its the way we came in. And the way we’re all going out.
Sounds good to me.
Cruz
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Im leaving.
For definate. And im leaving everything i ever thought about you on here.
Im starting a new blog on the 26th of September. Ill post the link when i make it.
Im moving to Spain for work. And to find myself all over again. Afeter that? U.S.A baby.
And ill leave every bad memory here.
And start again. All over again.
this time ill be bullet proof. Love proof.
What do you do when you know somethings bad for you, and you still cant let go?
Posted by pixieface | Filed under Uncategorized
I should have known
I was used for amusement
Couldn’t see through the smoke
It was all an illusion
Now I’ve been licking my wounds
But the venom seems deeper
We both can seduce
But darling you hold me prisoner
I’m about to break
I can’t stop this ache
I’m addicted to your allure
and I’m feigning for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need oh
I can’t mend
This torn state I’m in
Getting nothing in return
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
Everytime I try to gasp for air
I am smothered in despair it’s never over, over
Seems I’ll never wake from this nightmare
I let out a silent prayer, let it be over, over
Inside I’m screaming
Begging, pleading
No more
I don’t know what to do
My heart has been bruised
So sad but it’s true
Each beat reminds me of you
Oh it hurts my soul
Cuz I can’t let go
All these walls are caving in
I can’t stop my suffering
I hate to show that I’ve lost control
Cuz I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need oh
I’m about to break
I cant stop this ache
I’m addicted to your allure
And I’m feigning for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need oh
Tags: Delano
The Love Triangle.
Posted by pixieface | Filed under Uncategorized
Gosh, do you really really think its possible to love two people?
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I think it may be so.
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God, what do i do? Heart? Head? ..
-REALITY.
Caught in a Bad Romance
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Rah Rah Ah Ah Ahh.
Delano..
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Without sounding crazy, I will find you. I dont know if its what you want.
But if i dont, i believe i can never remove you from my mind.
Just the curiosity.
The unanswered questions.
The reasons you left me,
Will eventually drive me crazy.
So by any 1 in a million chance you read this,
I’m will find you one day. And i want an answer. Anything.
So i can put your ghost to rest in my mind,
Because without answers, there is nothing.
Nothing but more questions that spin and trigger memories in my mind.
And i simply cant live with that forever.
Because not knowing, is hurting. And you have no idea.
No idea.
Tags: Delano
Immortal.
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I can never be free until your gone. I can move on, sure. I have. but you are still there damn it. Your voice lingers around my ears and it wont leave me alone. Your face is behind my eyes and it wont disappear. The feeling you gave me is gone and i miss it. It feels wrong that i dont have the same jelly feeling in my tummy, the butterflies, and i never forget to breathe anymore. Its alien to me. Its wrong.
You should still be here. I thought you were meant to be with me. to be my friend forever. You used to say it was fate that brought you to me. Like an angel, i thought, because you saved me, for a while.
And im still writing to you. Like you even read it. See what you’ve done, i cant even leave you behind with my thoughts and feeling, they follow me around.
I cant let go, god knows i want to. But you see, you were a big part of my life, and i dont seem to know what to do with myself even now.
Even now.
Tags: Delano
And you really are gone.
Posted by pixieface | Filed under Uncategorized
Like, forever.
Tags: Delano
Run.
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Run away. Run is the only way. How could something so perfect at one point decintegrate so fast? And the only way i can escape is if i run. it’s the only way he will let me go.
So many things run through my head everyday, i dont understand it. How can i think about someone so much who was never really there? I feel insane at times, i even freak myself out.
Delano. He’s still there, in my head. I tell myself to shut up. Because he isn’t real, he never was. He should just get out my head. He’s messing me up.
And Manny. things are different. I love him, god i love him, but i need to be free. And i cant while im with him. I need to get out. But it’s not easy, because if i tell him, he’ll hurt himself, i know it.
What a big mess, you silly, silly girl.
Now to run, is my only option.
I Love You.
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I love you. We have been through so much. The lies, the hurt, the trust, the deciet. But also some of the best times of my life, there are too many to mention. We have lost eachother, and found eachother again. And this time i refuse to lose you. To anyone or anything. You filled the hole in my chest, the one that burned. I’m thinking maybe we needed the break up. Maybe it did us good. You had a time to realise you needed me, and i got to see that you loved me.
The littlest things i missed. The shape of your eyes and your nose, the way you put your arm round my waist when we’re sleeping, the way you stroke my face in the morning. I really missed it. And i miss you when your gone now. I miss you when your with me. I never want you to go away again.
We cant break again, because we are already broken, and thats what makes us perfect. We are not a whole. We are two broken pieces that happen to fit together perfect. Like fate.
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I love you.
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Tags: Manny..
